First of all, I gonna tell a very big Sorry to my dad and mum...Lot thing had happened and make me feel really different about our family, make me feel like we have something blocking our mind. First was my relationship, you guys worry about me so trying to help me by not allowed me continue with him..I have my own thinking about this, I did wrong too..so at last, I am thinking why not I just leave everything out and give both another chance may be it going to be better than last time. Since you guys always control me and him that make me feel really bad, I hate this feeling of being control, I knew you guys worry about me but I dare to take another risk to choose him again...and I hope you guys can support me but I got different treat...make me really fed-up about that...after that, dad and mum started to treat me really different, no love between us anymore, dad called up ask something important then hang without telling anything and mum as well...I started to feel little hate at that time..slowly I am ok...but then after he get well from dengue, I really running out of money and looking forward for my salary but what happened was I only got 1200 for the august salary...gosh...this make me totally down...I decided to quit and stop working..I worked hard too..I just dont feel good of the job..dont have a good system and boss expect me to change the system, if I really can do it well then I will sure do but I dont have confident yet I din did it before...but what I get is only scold from you guys..working in office and warehouse...make me really fed-up..cant have a good and stable job for me, then if I din did it well get scold pulak...sometimes warehouse got any problem get scold from mum pulak...office got problem get scold from boss pulak..sienz...salary pulak so damn low...feel god damn bad to get scold from own parents always...make our relationship worse..I decided to quit, I think is better if we dont work together too much..because my attitude is not that good as well..May be I need to have some changes to get another level of life...but mum and dad not understanding me..
Lot thought in my mind that I dunno how to tell...I think that will last forever...but whatever it is..I still love my daddy and mum...hope you understand..I just wanna make thing easier..I dont think I can handle the big business like that..and I just hope we can get better like last time we did...it takes time...I am looking for job now, and I knew it is not easy but I gonna try...I feel confuse recently ..dunno which way should I go but...I really hope I will go through this hardest time in my 23 year life...I am not a child anymore..be dare to take up this biggest challenge in life..be strong enough to make this happen...
God bless me....!!!
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